i wish

i.......i wish
i can be like ameera-senpai.
she so kind and everone love to be her friend.she also good at draw and making
novel story.

i wish i can be like emma-senpai.
she is mature and she is ameera-senpai best friend.
not like me,i'am only ameera junior and i can't even know what
ameera-senpai problem.she also good at drawing not like me
just a baka noob.

i wish i can be like firdaus
he is soooo good that all the teacher say he very good.everyone like to be his
friend.he is a bit annoying but he is mature.he good at drawing.

i wish i can be like qistina
oh she was super mature
just like a mom
sooo good and nice

they all are good muslim/muslima
they all are mature
they all soooo good at study
they all have true friend
they all have best friend
they all been like by everyone

but.....how about me?

not a good muslima
not mature
not good at study
no true friend
hate by everyone who know me
pain of ass
super annoying
love to make people mad
act like child
love(-)thing

i.....
i WANT TO CHANGE!!!
but.....
i just.....
can't....
change any...
i'am so sad
i'am so mad
i hate my self!!!